Saturday, August 31, 2013

Letter to my Boyfriend #1

Before your departure to England - January 2012
Dear Guillaume,

When we first met, things were a bit complicated. I was not ready for a relationship and everything was confusing, but deep inside, I knew it was love at first sight. When I saw you that night, I felt something. There were thirty unknown people in that room and yet we talked for hours. I remember when you took my hand so I won't get lost in that nightclub. I remember the electricity in the air. After a few weeks, we started dating, but I wanted some time on my own so I told you I needed space ... But gave you my key anyway ! Then, my flat became yours and we have been dreaming of officially moving in together ever since. It was three years ago ... Then you went to England, I  travelled to Ireland, you moved to another city and we spent the summer appart. How many anniversaries, birthdays, celebrations did we miss ? I do not even remember, I stopped counting, because all that mattered was that in September 2013, we will finally be together. I have been working hard to enter my dream master, so I could study what I really like and move in with you.

Our first anniversary in the Île de Ré

And here we are, moving in together tomorrow afternoon. We talked about it so much I do not even realize this is actually happening ! I will start everyday next to you, have breakfast, lunch and dinner with you, fall asleep in your arms while watching a movie and lay down by your side at night. I won't have to be away from you anymore, and I won't feel alone in my cold bed during winter time. I won't be lonely, because you will be there. We won't miss my birthday, our anniversary or Valentine's Day because our schedules do not allow us to see each other. Distance won't be an issue.

First trip to Ireland together - April 2011

This sounds perfect, but I know it won't be that easy. I promise I will stay calm when you won't clean the flat, because I know I am too maniac. I promise I will share the wardrobe with you, because I know how many clothes I own ! I promise I will prepare you breakfast on Sunday mornings and yes, I will go to the bakery to buy french baguette and croissants, even if I am ugly when I wake up and hate rushing outside without any makeup on. I promise I will surprise you everyday, even after a long day at school, even when I will be tired or sick. I promise I will do my best to make you happy, to make you forget about the hardness of life, to make you feel safe. Because I love you and I promise I will always do. 

Friday, August 30, 2013


Last day of work !

I have been so busy lately between my job, studying and packing for the moving that I did not realize time was flying. Every day looked the same: I was sitting at the desk, waiting for the tourists to ask me the same questions all over again: "where is the harbour ?" or "do you have a map for cycling in the area ?". It has been pretty quiet, but I had a lot in my mind. It is only today at noon that I realized my summer job was over. I have spent two summers working at the tourist office with an amazing team (with whom I celebrated the end of the season tonight). It is weird to think that I will never work there again because I really felt comfortable, surrounded by friends (which I know is rare in the working world).

I got the chance to try on my new sunglasses ... Oh sunny day !
Now it's time to start a new adventure: moving in with my boyfriend ! Filling in the papers for the flat was not easy and we disagreed on many things, but I am trying to be patient and understanding. We have been dreaming of having our home for two years now and this dream grew bigger as we lived a long distance relationship for nearly a year and a half. I have only seen him once this month, and a few times within the summer and living together in a small flat is going to be challenging. It is exciting and scarry at the same time, but we will do our best to make it work. I really want to make up for missing Valentine's Day, his birthday and our anniversary last year ... We have been away for each other for too long and have so many things to catch up !

... and a new haircut !
Starting a master in university is also a huge challenge as I have been studying literature for five years now and will start marketing and management in a few days. It is brand new and I am quite stressed about failing ... I am also anxious as I am going to a new university in a new city ... Woh, so many new things happening in a few days ! I hope I will stay calm and in control ! For now, I am going to pack, clean my car and spend time with my family over our traditional Saturday dinner ! Have a nice week-end !

Meet the B. Family

Telling my relatives I loved them had never been an easy thing to me. Actually, I do not even remember saying it out of loud or even writing it on a card. I do not know if this is how we deal with our emotions in my family or if it is cultural, but we never say “I love you” … I doubt they will ever read this – or understand it as they do not speak English. But just writing about them is a way to show how I feel, because they really mean a lot to me.

My parents and my brother, Spain, October 2009

I was born in September, in the early 90's, in an hospital in front of the ocean. I have always been close to my parents, traveling around Europe, singing and acting all the time. Two years and a half after my birth, I got a little brother. I was really jealous and I tried several times to push his buggy in the stairs ! Nevertheless, we get closer through the years, especially during secondary school. I have always been the protective big sister, and still is. We spent our childhood between two loving parents and grand-parents who have been looking after us during the holidays. My best memories as a kid are those meals our grandmas used to cook or bake for us. They are the best :) We have been lucky to grow up on the Atlantic Coast and spent our summer holidays on the beach surrounded by plenty of friends. I am feeling blessed for having such a loving family … Especially now that I am (nearly) an adult and that I realize all the sacrifices our parents have done for us, for our studies, our happiness. They never stopped us from being who we really wanted to be and always encouraged us to fulfill our dreams ...

The B Family in Jordan, April 2010

If I had to chose someone who is inspirational, despite my parents, I would chose my Granny. When I was a heartbroken teenager, she told me to follow my heart, no matter what people said. She told me that when she was my age, she was in love with a young man from her village. He wanted to invite her to a dance, but some friends of our family told her mother that he was already engaged. So she went to the dance with my grand-father and found out that the man she loved was actually waiting for her and had not any fiancée. Then she got engaged with my grand-father, got married, had a restaurant, opened a bakery (while she dreamed of being a hairdresser), had two daughters and two grand-children. She does not regret the life she had and I know she loves us more than anything else in the world, but she taught me to follow my instinct and fight for my dreams and the people I love. We both are really close to each other, as she is a second mother to me. When she had a heart attack, two years ago, my world fell apart. To me, my Gran was immortal. She would dance with me during my wedding, would carry my first child and would always be by my side. She survived it, she fought and after a month of reeducation, she was able to walk and speak again. My best Christmas gift ever was to have her at home with us. We often fight, because she is a strong woman and I have to say, she has a terrible temper, but I guess I look a lot like her. While writing this, my eyes are full of tears. I never told her, but I love her …


There are also three other important people in my life: my uncle, my aunt and my little cousin. My uncle is my father's youngest brother and also my Godfather. Zoe, my ten years old cousin, is half Irish, half French. Her parents moved to Ireland about fourteen years ago and received me for holidays since I was twelve. I have spent my best holidays as a teenager under their roof. I have been out for the first time, having beer at the pub, going to amazing concerts, going shopping in a super big mall … I experienced many things there and I felt free and wild (ah ah). Every time I came to visit, I felt like home and that this place could cure all my pains. Family and Ireland are definitely the best cures ever when it comes to broken hearts and teen issues ! Last January, I studied in Ireland for a semester, and I stayed with them for four months. I do not know how I would have managed to financially survive without them ! They are generous, kind and I really miss them right now !

Finally, the last “person” I would like to introduce is my lovely dog, Benji. He is one of my (other) best Christmas present as we welcomed him in the family on December 24th 2006 ! He is a black Labrador and I am crazy about him ! He has this look when he stares at me … It makes me feel like hugging him for hours ! Ben is the nicest dog I have ever met ! He loves kids, playing and cuddling … Sometimes, I like to think we have a special connection and that he loves me more than the rest of the family. But it's only because I feed him from time to time, ah ah. But honestly, when I am away from home, I miss him a lot. Once, when I was in Ireland, I talked to him over the phone (he never answered – of course) and I nearly cried ! Oh my … ! He is the best !

Benji, January 2007 & Easter 2013

So here we are, welcome here, this is my family and the people I love. I am about to leave my parent's house in two days now … You know what they say … Home is where the heart is ...

Thursday, August 29, 2013

I switch blog as I change clothes

In the past few days, I have been reading many blogs in English, from America and Great-Britain and I felt like opening and writing my own blog, but this time, in English.

Little me in October 1994 ... First trip to Ireland !

I am a French girl, with a degree in English Literature and Civilisation who had always had a passion for travelling and for the Anglosaxon culture. As far as I can remember, I have always been around English speaking people, from my childhood until now, and this language and this culture have been cradling me for ever. Also, I am crazy about Ireland, which I have visited at least ten times ! My relatives live there, I have been au pairing twice, spent four months as an Erasmus student, met incredible people and amazing friends. Sometimes I even feel like I was born in the wrong country !

Prom Night in Ireland ... A dream coming true !
March 2013 
I live in the West of France and my life is quite ... typical ! I am still studying and I will start a Master in tourism hospitality management in a few days ... I am about to move in with my boyfriend for (nearly) three years, Guillaume, which is a big step forward for the both of us ! My family and my friends are essential to my happiness and I try to be there for them as much as I can, no matter the distance or the ordeals ...

I have decided to write this blog in English as I have discovered many inspiring blogs ... They represent everything I love about the Anglosaxon culture: the American Dream, love, family, feminity, values ... I love the fact that these women are devoted to their husband or boyfriend, their family, their friends. That they share their tips about the everyday life as a married woman, or simply a grown-up woman. They inspire me, because I feel that I am in a period of transition, slowy moving from a dreamy teenage girl to a responsible woman. I feel lost in my dreams, my ambitions, my future and I aspire to be a better person. In every way. I want to be a better daughter, a better friend, a better girlfriend. I dislike the way we see life and things in France, especially nowadays with the recession. I want to be positive and blooming. I want to enjoy life and see its good sides. I want to have faith in the future and in the world ...

Guillaume and I, Disneyland Paris
 November 2012

PS: Sorry about the mistakes, I am still learning !
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