Live, Love, Laugh

There have been so many things going on since we moved in ! I started college, homeworks and researches for my essais to write. I feel like I don't fit in, as if I was an outsider ... I have been really stressed over the last few weeks, ans I have to say, I have a love/hate relation with pressure. 

I like being busy, feeling like a super-business-woman, writing endless to-do-lists, reaching goals ... I have to admit, I like to dream big and make things happen ! BUT, I also feel stuck within the tone of work and studies I have to do and I can't move on. This is actually how i feel at the moment, I have so many things to do I don't even know where to start. And this is affecting my creativity so much that I don't have time to post anything and don't feel inspired anymore ... 

I have to say, it is hard to find time to go to class, study at home, have a drink with my friends, find an internship and spend time with Guillaume. Luckily, he is perfect ! He does the cleaning, cooks for me when I go home, deals with the laundry :)  He reminds me everyday that he is proufd of me and tells me that I can do whatever I want if I do my best. 

Cliff of Moher, Ireland
March 2013

               

Living together is the best thing that happened to us after being apart for so long ... We wanted it so bad, it almost hurt when we are not together. I love the idea that he will be home when I come back after 7 hours of class, that he will cook and we will spend the evening drinking tea while watching Game of Thrones ! This is so perfect that being away from him hurts. It is the first night I am having on my own since we moved in together (Guillaume is visiting his family for the week-end) and I am feeling lost ! As if my entire world was empty ! Hopefully, he will be back on Sunday and the flat will be quiet to study ! Ah Ah.

Well, being on my own is not that bad, I guess having some time in private with ourselves always help. Tonight, I have realised how much I love my family and how much I miss them. I am used to be independant and away from my parents, but I really miss talking to them, having their pieces of advice about my studies or my choices. I also skyped my Irish family tonight, and I really miss them. Living with them was a pure moment of happiness, I enjoy the serenity in their home, their little rituals and I really feel that love is in every corner :)  

Gwendoline & Lucie <3
Aran Island, Ireland. April 2013

Also, I am really greatful for all the true friends I have met in the last couple of years. We had upside downs, I doubted a lot, sometimes I felt hurt or betrayed but they are still here and we made it through the negativity of some people, the gossips and the distance. When Guillaume and my family are not there, I know I can trust and count on them. They are my second family and for the first time of my life, I have reliable and kind friends around me.

I love you all, even if I do not say it aloud.